Yeah I feel you. Trying to fit into the mold that this world wants you to fit into is tiring and extremely counter-productive. It takes a great deal of strength to resist though, otherwise everyone would walk by the beat of their own drum. And oh what a great rhythm that would be.
I appreciate the point about not having to take a part in the “professional” grind that we’re influenced to conform to. I think we all would like to tell our younger selves that.